@#$%& clients!

I am so tired....

Been buried under piles of work, which all came flooding in all at once since last week and everyone wants their proposal TODAY...

I HATE clients from the very core of my soul... and DETEST servicing them even more... especially clients in this industry...

I wish I had access to a punching bag right now... would like to imagine I'm rearranging someone's face...

I wish I had a million dollars so that I can afford to support myself and pay 30 cents more for a liter of gas (and everything else that's gonna increase in price) and make a rude face to my employer and the clients and go "Nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeh nyeeeehhh! I'm quitting NOW. I'm paying u back for my 2 months notice. Go solve ur problems urself! Pbbbtthhhh!"

*SMACK!* Oww... I need to get back down to the real world and stop hallucinating...

When Things Are Not Wat They Seem

No "hi" even? Oh dear... it's worse than I'd thought it would be... :o(

Another RED moment...

haiyaiyai.... malunya!!! *blushing furiously*

Was gonna check with CB if she was still handling the telco keyword notification. While walking to her place (3 cubes behind mine), the word 'telco notification' kept playing in my mind. Got to her place.

Me : "Telco!"

CB : "Telco?" *starts laughing*

Me : *blushing furiously* Oh my gawd, I'm so sorry! This is sooooo embarrassing! I meant to say ur name but I was thinking 'telco notification' in my head so the first word that came out was 'telco!'

CB : *still laughing, turning really red*

Me : *still blushing furiously, any redder and I'd turn into a tomato* Dun lar... very embarrassing lar... I meant to ask "Are u still in charge of telco keyword notification?"

CB : *still laughing but manages to spit out* Yes i am... telco! hahahahaha!

I need to find a hole now and bury myself to protect my family name.

Freezing my ass off

...coz the blurdy A/C at work is sooooooo cold! It's like a blurdy freakin morgue in here! Not that I've been in a morgue before but I assume it would be at least as cold as it is now in my ofc. I'm wearing a jacket and I'm still soooooo cold!

That's one thing abt buildings in KL. I dun, for the life of me, understand why the hell the A/C temperatures are set to be sooooo low that we'd need a bomber jacket just to keep warm! U'd see ppl all huddled over their desks, wrapped up in sweaters, jackets, shawls but the sun is shining oh-so-brightly outside. Oh, the irony of it all!! And when u go outside for lunch, u'd practically be roasting. It's soooo ridiculous! We are in tropical climate, for crying out loud!!!!! Yet inside, we're all wrapped up like mummies just to keep out the cold.

Gah... no wonder there's global warming... just check out the no. of A/C units on each building u see.

Never Been Tagged... up to now, that is

I've been tagged!!! I've been tagged!!!! Oh wow!!! I'm not a Tag Virgin anymore (thanks for the term and the tag, Winn... hehe). Can u believe that I didn't know how tagging works?? Sorry lar, not the very smart person here... ehehe...

Here goes...

Current time : 10:44am (my PC clock), 10:47am (wall clock to my right), 10:51am (my watch)

What i am wearing : Black Padini work jacket (so blurdy cold in the ofc), white long-sleeved workshirt (can't remember wat brand), black MNG workpants, my trusty ol' Teva slippers (they're off now, am barefoot at my desk), 2 rings (one on each middle finger), my Tag Heuer, crystal pendant, and my brand new FCUKs!!

Something out of the ordinary on my desk : uumm... uummm... i dun see anything extraordinary wor *craning head to left and right* My desk is messy as usual, papers covering almost the entire desk. Well, my Thermos is not on my desk, where it normally is. It's on my side table... that one can count ah??

Current fave song : SongS can ah??? Far Away by Nickelback, Goodbye My Lover by James Blunt, Check On It by Beyonce featuring Slim Thug and Bun B from the Pink Panther soundtrack (very catchy, annoying almost... haha! I catch myself doing shoulder rolls to it when I hear it on the radio while in the car)

Last thing consumed : 2 teaspoons Nescafe Gold Blend + 3 teaspoons sugar + 3 teaspoons CoffeeMate + 3/4 cup of hot water

Last phone call received : at 10+ am from Adrienne... asking abt mobile content

Current annoyance :

1. One vendor is not answering my call to confirm a training session. I get the "Out of coverage" message. She was supposed to call me YESTERDAY.
2. One client is not answering my calls and she owes me a winners' list plus payment of RM10K.
3. Finance is on my back re. item #2 above.
4. Stupid revenue reports for project (item #2) above does not tally with the actual transactions and I have to go thru telco by telco and verify. Give me additional work only, hmph.
5. Stupid f**king M'sian drivers (especially the ones with the modified cars with the super loud exhaust (?) i.e. the ah beng kind) who, even in heavy traffic, drive like maniacs and try to overtake every single car like their asses are on fire but then end up stuck in the queue like the rest of us. Hah, PADAN MUKA! See, how fast can u go, morons???

Plans for the day/evening :

• Original plan : head home after work, have dinner, shower, watch a couple of episodes of House, MD
• Revised plan : head over to studio to stand in as part-time receptionist for my sis, who is sick today, from 8-9pm. Still trying to decide if I should have dinner out or in. Already told mom would be home for dinner... hhhmmm...

okie... who should i tag now??? Oooooooo, Winn!! This is my Virgin Tag too!!! But but... I dun have that many bloggers on my list to tag... sad sad... :o(

I shall tag *drum roll*

1. My sister! Ahahah!!! Since u're sick and nothing to do at home, lemme give u something to do. Seeee... I'm sooo kind :p
2. CL, since u're almost always bored at work :p Give u something to do also... hehe...

Ok...ok... enuf... back to work...ssssshhhhh!!!

My new FCUKs

My latest investment : RM765 on a new pair of FCUK glasses

I detest getting new glasses made coz it always costs a bomb (my astigmatism is high). But it's high time I made one coz the lenses on my current pair were scratched like a vinyl record (correct analogy ah?).

Anyway, picked them up last nite. Oh, another thing I hate abt getting new glasses is that I usually need multiple adjustments (i.e. multiple trips to my optician) to get it to sit just right on my nose/ears). Am still getting used to them now. Will see in a few days if it's comfortable or not.

Here are the BEFORE and AFTER shots:

BEFORE

That's me in my old glasses, also FCUK. Been told that I look like a schoolteacher in them (?!)

MY NEW FCUKs

AFTER

Yes, I know... this is an ugly pic... but wat do u expect after a hard day's work??? Definitely no Ashley Judd here... duh! *rolling eyes* The new eyes are half-framed, lime green on the inside and dark purplish-brown on the outside. Weird color combo but heck, I thought it looked rather funky when I first tried them on. And CL tells me that I dun look like a schoolteacher anymore, haha. BUT BUT this afternoon, Melvin, my cube neighbor, commented "Eh, new glasses? U look like a teacher" *WAAAAIIILLL!!!* So which is which??? Teacher or not teacher????

ANYWAY, it doesn't matter... nothing can be done now. Already got the glasses so gotta ENJOY it for at least the next 2 yrs coz that's how long I'm planning make it last till I make the next one.

F-O-C-U-S

I can focus! My mind-map looks like this today:

Yay to me!!! :D

Oowww

oooeeerrrrr... I can feel the start of a pounding headache :o(

Mind games...

Have u ever had one of those days where there're sooooo many different things going on in ur mind and u can't focus on anything???

That's wat's happening to me today... my brain literally feels like it's overloaded and physically, my neck doesn't feel strong enuf to support its weight. I dunno wat the hell I'm thinking abt but it just feels like there're tons of things happening in it and I seem to have lost control of it... sigh...

Feels like a mind-map... u know, those pictorial thingies that has a main center and branches coming outta it? Like this:

I hope it's just PMS...

Clients...

Why do clients:

1. Think they are God
2. Always ask for things to be delivered yesterday
3. Ask for ridiculous things when they know very well that it either cannot be done OR will take a significant amount of time and $$$ to get it done... and, if they can afford it, they still want it done yesterday
4. Think that as long as they have the $$$, everything they demand for can and will be delivered yesterday
5. Have no concept of development and implementation effort, and ask stupid questions like "Hah, you mean you cannot do it within the next day ah? But I want to launch in 3 days wor."
6. Have no concept that systems, like any other electronic device, have their share of issues and no system is ever bug-free, and persist to jump sky-high and yell at the top of their voices whenever there is the slightest problem with the system
7. Treat vendors like lil' tiny ants that they can bully and twist till all their limbs fall off

I WANT TO BE THE CLIENT!!!

Blardy hell!!

ARGH!!! I need to blog!!! I need to blog!!!! How come stupid Blogspot cannot access one??!!! *WAAAAIIILLL!!!*

Earlier, after sitting thru a mind-boggling i-have-no-clue-wat-i'm-doing-here meeting:

Me : Hah?? I have to attend the meeting with the client also ah??
Sr Mgr (not mine) : Yes la... u're going to handle the project mar...
Me : But my boss didn't brief me abt it also...
Another sr bigwig : Oh, I'm sure she just forgot abt it... she's ok abt it. U remind her the next time u have ur WIP with her la...
Me : Oh...ok (inside : blurdy hell!! u guys just dumping this on me coz no one else wants to do it, isn't it?!)

See, the first time they called me in the meeting to 'discuss' this project was like, i dunno, a few mths ago. My boss didn't brief me abt it prior to the meet. Fine, never mind. After that meeting, there was no sound at all abt the existence of it. Today, they called me in again to discuss the mechanics to present to the client. My boss still hasn't briefed me abt it to date and it's not like her not to brief me abt the projects she wants me to manage. Thus, my conclusion is that they got no scapegoat to clean up the mess so I have to pick up after someone else's shit... and I dun even handle this particular type of service in my portfolio! They've got the other team that handles this type of service! So tell me again why I've suddenly been assigned to manage this?!

I think it's a conspiracy. They know that the client is the BITCHY, fierce, fussy type so they dun wanna handle her so they dump it to me instead. A bunch of chickenshit, that's wat they all are... hmph...

BAH!

Dammit, my skin is starting to break out and it's probably coz I have to deal with morons at work... hmph... get me so annoyed I have to resort to eating junk food *munch munch burp*

NEW Update : Hah! I just received an email from my boss that I've been assigned to handle this project. Gah! Great... just freakin awesomely great! I can't wait to get outta here!

Bye bye ang pows

I kena saman-ed on the first day of CNY! Talk abt bad luck, man! I hate it when cops hide around a blind corner and I only slow down when it's too late. GAH!

Got caught along the Sri Hartamas road coming out from Penchala Link heading towards Bangsar. The blurdy coppers were stationed just after the overhead bridge that links to KLGCC (i think?). I was apparently doing 104 in an 80 stretch. Who the freakin hell does 80kmph on a goddamn freakin highway?!

GAH! And can't even get discount on the blurdy saman coz apparently, it was an Ops Khas for CNY and no discounts were being entertained. So now have to pay back my dad RM300, who got it settled for me. There goes half my ang pow money. Minus the other RM300 I had to pay to get my passport done, I got no more ang pow money!!!!! *WAAAIIILLL!* :o(

Mamee anyone???

GAH! I'm on my third packet of Mamee today!

Was feeling peckish so after lunch, went to 7-11 to look for junk food and bought a packet of "10 in 1" bag of Mamee (long time haven't had this... reminds me of my younger days when we were forbidden to touch stuff like Mamee, Twisties, Kum Kum, etc.)...

I guess the demotivation is playing its part in me being a junk food junkie. No motivation to work so I have to turn my attention to something else i.e. JUNK FOOD!

Bleeecckk... I need to get rid of these packets of Mamee before my hair falls out from too much perencah. Got 4 more packs left...

The 'L' Word

Last weekend, I bought the 1st season of The 'L' Word dvds.

I have watched up to Episode 8 since then.

It is quite interesting to see the lives of these lesbians, but whether or not it's a realistic view of the lesbian life, I wouldn't know but it's entertaining all the same. A few of them are quite hot-looking (e.g. Mia Kirshner a.k.a. Jenny Schecter, Karina Lombard a.k.a. Marina, and Katherine Moennig a.k.a. Shane McCutcheon) and not to mention, the steamy sex scenes.

Some guys (and gals?) apparently get off watching woman-on-woman action but nah, dun work for me. But interesting to see how they do it tho, not that they show the exact details but oh well, I guess that's as close as I can get to watch a tastefully-done lesbian sex scene as opposed to those distasteful, porn ones... bleecckkk...

I think I shall continue to Episode 9 tonite...

I think I'm gonna turn turning into a DVD series addict soon...

I bought the 1st season of House, MD as well...

Utterly Demotivated

sigh... am so demotivated at work. Have reached the stage where I dun really care abt wat I'm doing at work anymore and am just going thru the motions, waiting for 6pm when I can pack up and go home. Am still doing my work, but the drive is not there anymore. Normally, when I'm demotivated, I'd still care abt my work i.e. care enuf to get it done well and on time. But now, that drive has gone and though I'm still getting things done on time (most of the time), I dun really care how I do it anymore. This sucks, since I'm quite the perfectionist and need things done well, and sloppy work drive me nuts but I've really got no motivation to put in the effort.

Thus, it is high time for me to look for a change of environment. I have reached that state where I need to get out or stay here and rot and get cranky. Have something in the horizon and hopefully, if all goes as planned, it'll bear fruit and I'll be outta here soon *crossing fingers and toes*

But in the meantime, slog on I must... well, not really slog lar, the workload is not bad. But still... the work is uninspiring, to say the least... blurgh... 7 more hrs to go...

Damn Darth Vader!

Argh!!! I was chased by Darth Vader and he killed me with this funky-looking gun-like weapon... in my dream last nite...

The Result : an extremely sleep-deprived me, today... my head is starting to pound from the lack of restful sleep last nite, no thanks to Darth let-me-freakin-sleep-Vader... blurgh...

I dunno why but I seem to have an overactive subconscious mind when I'm asleep. I get to sleep fine (no insomnia here) but I always have dreams when I sleep. Like last nite. When out of nowhere, Darth Vader appeared in my dream and chased me and killed me. Hmph. And I haven't even been watching any Star Wars movies and am not a Star Wars fan.

Maybe I should borrow the BIL's light saber and sleep with it beside me so I can stick it up Darth get-outta-my-dream-Vader's @$$ the next time he appears. Hmph. Kacau only.

Good excuse to drink beer??

Got this in my email this morning....

“Sometimes when I reflect back on all the beer I drank, I feel ashamed. Then I look into the glass and think about the workers in the brewery and all of their hopes and dreams. If I didn't drink this beer, they might be out of work and their dreams would be shattered. Then I say to myself, "It is better that I drink this beer and let their dreams come true than be selfish and worry about my liver."

Phobias

My phobia list:

• Chrometophobia or Chrematophobia : Fear of Money
• Scoleciphobia : Fear of Worms
• Enochlophobia, Demophobia or Ochlophobia : Fear of Crowds or Mobs
• Emetophobia : Fear of Vomiting

Some weird and downright funny types of phobia:

• Soceraphobia : Fear of Parents-In-Law
• Phobophobia : Fear of Phobias
• Clinophobia : Fear of Beds or Going to Bed
• Geniophobia : Fear of Chins
• Oneirogmophobia : Fear of Wet Dreams
• Panophobia, Panphobia, Pamphobia, or Pantophobia : Fear of Everything

Phobia terms courtesy of phobialist.com. Wat are your phobias?

Wat about your lover's knees?

Had a good laugh listening to Fly FM on the way to work yesterday.

They were having this Valentine's thingy where the caller would be asked to describe their lover's 'bits' (as selected by the DJs) for 30 secs to win a hand/foot spa from Kukubar.

So this guy, Khan*, calls in and he was told to describe his lover's knees for 30 secs. So he starts, blah... blah... "My lover's knees are good for giving me a back massage. And there's this spot behind her knees, where, if I hit the right spot, it'll turn her on, and in turn, it'll turn me on" and at this point, I started laughing coz the way he described it, it was so funny!

He managed to make it to 30 secs and then Fly Guy asks him, "So what's ur lover's name?" and he says "Alyssa*" and then bells started ringing in my head! OMG! That's my friend's boyfriend!! HAHA! See, they both have not-so-common names, so the possibility of another couple with the same names is very slim.

Naturally, I had to tease her abt it so when I got to work, I msg-ed her and she went "WHAT?!" coz she didn't catch the program. She retorted that he's gonna get some knee action just to live up to his stories.

Looks like someone's either gonna get lucky or get hurt really bad... hehe...

*Names changed to protect the identity of the individuals involved, for obvious reasons ;o)

Another one down!

Another lou sang dinner down, and one more to go! :o)

The co. had our CNY dinner last nite at the Tai Thong restaurant at the Bkt. Kiara club, same place as last year. But this year, the number of ppl were significantly lesser and the bosses were less crazy (read: drunk) than last year, probably coz the next day (i.e. today) was a working day and they didn't want anyone taking MC... haha...

Almost fell asleep in the middle of dinner, probably coz of the wine I'd drunk... haha...

Here're some evidence of the merry-makings last nite:

(1) Group pic! Back (Chris - ED); Middle (Jessica, Pey Shen, Shawnae, Phik Shan, Celine, Jess); Front (Melvin, Tava, Me)

(2) The Gals! Jas - CEO, Phik Shan, Shawnae, Pey Shen, Me, Jessica

(3) Me & Campbell (his hair is always done spiky but today, he had it combed down... sooooo not used to it! haha! I kept teasing him that he looked like such a 'good boy' with this hair!)

(4) Another group pic! This was at the end of the nite, when everyone was drunk. Well, almost everyone ;o) Sitting (Shawnae, Charmayne, William - the drunk one, Melvin); Back (Me, Celine)

(5) Me and Celine - we were taking pics of ourselves with our Sony Ericsson K750s... hehe

My Experience at the Immigration Dept

It's that time again... I have to get a new passport made!!! Yucks...

I have a phobia of going to our govt centers to get documents done e.g. IC, passport, u name it. Coz it's usually:

1. Packed with people
2. Service is very very slow
3. The staff treat u like u should be eternally grateful and thankful to them that they're there to serve u

But these things gotta be done so have to go la.

I first went to the Immigration Dept at Terminal 2 in Subang last Thu, the day after the CNY holidays. It was FT Day so the KL folks were still off but the Selangor folks were back to work. Before that, was informed by mom "not to worry, there won't be anybody there. Half an hour and u'll be done." When I turned off into the specific area to get the parking lot, OMG! The line of ppl queueing up snaked from inside the office until outside the road! If u've seen the movie queue at KLCC on a weekend, that's wat it looked like. I took one look, took a U-turn and left the place coz I didn't wanna waste my time waiting. I think everyone had the same idea as I did i.e. holiday in KL so everyone's taking the opportunity to get their official documents done.

Fast forward to this morning. Thought since it's already the 3rd day back at work, everyone would've pretty much gotten back into their normal routine and there'll be less ppl at the Immigration Dept. Got there at 8am, no line of ppl queueing up outside, found a parking spot, went in. Saw this long queue of ppl from all the way on one end of the office to where I was i.e. on the other end of the office. Found out that that was the queue I needed to be in just to get a number. Forget it, not waiting coz I had to get to work.

Decided to try the Immigration center at Pusat Bandar Damansara. Had already been warned by CL that the place will most likely be packed as well but decided to try my luck. Got there around 10.45am. Got my number, no queue. Waited about 10 mins, my no. was called. The guy went thru my docs, got my thumbprints, was done in 5-7 mins. Told to wait for my turn to make payment. Sat down, waited for another 5 mins. My turn to pay. Got my receipt and voila! I collect my new passport in 2 days! All in all, I got everything done in less than half an hour!

Kudos to the Immigration Dept at Pusat Bandar Damansara. Very efficient. Had lots of counters, 20+ I think. So that moved the ppl along quite quickly.

I could get used to the efficient service... :D Dun smile at me also never mind la, as long as I dun have to wait till the cows come home! :o)

Loh Sang and Merv is Married!!

Merv, my longtime college buddy, has gone and got himself married! Not that that's a bad thing, mind u... am just quite tickled, him being a married man now and all that... hehe...

Had loh sang dinner last nite with Merv, Joanne (Merv's friend), sis + Rizal, Jo Ming (godbro) + Sean, and CL. Went to this restaurant, Hoi Kee, in Brickfields. I didn't even know there were Chinese restaurants in Brickfields, aside from the one corner Chinese shop with hawker stalls. Am actually getting quite sick of loh sang... I've had like, 5 loh sangs this year. I really shouldn't complain, seeing that I'd totally missed it last yr from being sick but I think I've had about 2 loh sangs too many, haha... ok ok *zip* stop complaining! :p Have another CNY dinner tonite, this time with the co. And another one this Sat with Kajang friends. So another 2 more loh sangs... sigh...

Headed over the Ms Read at Bangsar Village for the infamous banoffee pie (have been hearing abt this pie for ages but never tried it). It was not bad... also had tiramisu in a cup, which I quite liked... yuuummmm...

Here's evidence of last nite's event:

(1) Sean and Jo Ming (he matches the pillows, hehe)

(2) Sis & Rizal

(3) CL & Me

(4) Merv - the newly married man! :p

(5) The God Siblings! :o)

Aaaaaaahhh... another successful nite out.... :o)

Baju Mandi

Guys can be quite hilarious when it comes to women's apparel. Had an interesting conversation with one of my IT guys the other day. The topic : my Victoria's Secret wraparound sweater a.k.a. Baju Mandi. Here's our entire conversation (edited, of course), which started off from a comment on my YM pic (it's quite an ice breaker, haha!)...

IT Guy : yo sexy....
Me : yes, lengchai?? wat can i do for u?
IT Guy : no lah....i thot who from the pic. very attractive pic
Me : eh, would i put some other chick's pic on my Y!?! eh, wait a min.. so long already i put this pic here.... NOW only u noticed?!
IT Guy : notice long time oredi. but now only i notice it's u
Me : aiyoh! why?? u think i cannot look that good is it??
IT Guy : maybe i overlook things
Me : aiyoh, how can like that??? so attractive chick staring at u right on ur PC also u can miss.... how to notice other attractive chicks when u are walking on the streets or in the malls?!
*snicker snicker*
*blah blah blah - something abt me being too lazy to approach ppl*
IT Guy : i know, cause there's one day i saw u in ur baju mandi. i dont really know what that thing is called
Me : baju mandi???!!!
IT Guy : ussually ppl wear it after they took their shower
Me : hallo???? that's a sweater laaaaa!!! not a robe!
IT Guy : haaaa...robe
Me : it is a wraparound S-W-E-A-T-E-R
IT Guy : doesnt look like sweater to me
Me : u guys... have to learn more abt women's fashion. anyway, wat with my baju mandi????
IT Guy : i thot u too lazy to change so u just go to work like that
Me : hahahah!!!! u seriously thought i came to work without changing???!!! oh my gawd!!!! are u the only who thought that or did the rest of the guys think that too???
IT Guy : i think the guys has the same thought as me as well
*there goes my reputation*
Me : i can't believe u actually thought that i didn't change! how come u never come and ask me la?
IT Guy : if it's really true...then i dont want u to be malu
Me : do i look like the kind of person who would get out of bed, dun change, and come straight to work?????
IT Guy : a bit
Me : really ah? why ah? coz i always wear slippers in the ofc, is it?
*I'd taken to wearing my Teva's in the office when I dun have to meet clients, after the incident where I busted my ankle*
IT Guy : that add up another point
Me : some more wat else???? the messy hair??? haha
IT Guy : u know
*He was actually serious abt the hair!*
Me : i like the messy-hair look. but other than that, my clothes look ok wat. no meh???? well, except today la...
*Was in jeans and a baby-T*
IT Guy : or is it the latest fashion?
Me : i just wear wat i feel comfortable in
IT Guy : i guess that baju mandi is really comfortable for you
Me : yes it is

Haha... was almost rolling on the floor after the conversation! lol! This is the aforementioned "Baju Mandi":

Uptight = high strung = jittery = nervy = jumpy

Uptight adj. Slang

1. Tense; nervous
2. Financially pressed; destitute
3. Outraged; angry
4. Rigidly conventional, as in manners, opinions, and tastes: “She sees this headlong, headstrong, plunge into worldliness as a protracted process of shucking the shame of her uptight upbringing” (James Wolcott).

Am I 'uptight'? Some say I am... but I beg to differ. Being uptight sounds like hard work. I am who I am, without any extra effort. Does that make me uptight? Hmm...

Mossie bait...

I have been feeding the mossies quite a bit this holiday coz I've been at home a lot. Actually, I've been feeding mossies not only at my place but at sis' place and CL's place as well. They all seem to like me a lot. At one point, I had 5 mossie bites on my legs. Here's one of 'em:

That's a beauty, eh?? :p Gawd, I lurve all these mossies! *SMACK*

Everyone is different...accept that!

I am very annoyed... hmph...

Some ppl should realize by now that we all have our habits and idiosyncracies, some of which may or may not make sense to others. As wat I always believe, as long as my habits and idiosyncracies do not affect any other living being but myself, ppl should just leave me alone and not question nor undermine wat I do.

Let's consider a hypothetical situation. For example, say, if I like to spread butter on my toast, then spread peanut butter, then another layer of butter before eating it, then just let me be coz (1) I am eating the toast and not someone else, and I know how I like my toast to be done (2) All that butter and peanut butter might be unhealthy but heck, I dun eat toast with butter and peanut butter all that often... so let me be! (3) And you dun have to make a big deal out of how I eat my peanut butter and toast coz it just, well, peanut butter and toast! Another person who eats their toast with just peanut butter cannot expect me to eat mine like that as well coz s/he has his/her way of eating toast and I have mine. I dun expect anyone else to eat their toast like I do so other ppl should keep their toast-eating habits to themselves and not impose them on me either.

Hmph... some ppl just cannot leave their noses and comments out of other ppl's business. If someone has that perpetual need to impose their way of doing things on others, go have a kid or get a dog.

Postscript : I am, however, more than willing to compromise if my habits, for some reason or other, affect another individual in any way.

still bored still bored still bored

I... AM... STILL... BORED

bored bored bored bored bored

I... AM... BORED

Wat is Love???

Extracts taken from This Lullaby by Sarah Dessen

Conversation between the lead character, Remy, and her mother, who's just been remarried for the 5th time.


Extract 1
She smiled at me. "You never know, Remy. Love is so unpredictable. Sometimes you'll know a man for years and then one day, boom! Suddenly you see him in a different way. And other times, it's that first date, that first moment. That's what makes it so great."


Extract 2
"God," I said, lowering my voice, "I don't see how you put up with him."

She smiled, reaching over to brush my hair out of my face. "He's not so bad."

"He's a big baby," I said. "And that Ensure thing would make me nuts."

"Maybe it would," she agreed. "But I love Don. He's a good man, he's kind to me. And no relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater. Yes, Don has habits that try my patience. And I'm sureI have plenty that do the same for him."...

"But," she went on... "the love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that's the key. It's like a big pie chart, and the love in a relationship has to be the biggest piece. Love can make up for a lot, Remy."


Extract 3
"Love is a sham," I said...

"Oh honey, no!"... "You don't really believe that, do you?"

I shrugged. "I have yet to be convinced otherwise."

"Oh, Remy." She picked up my hand, folding her fingers around mine... "How can you say that?"

"... just because a few marriages didn't last doesn't make it a total wash. I had many good years with your father... The four years I was with Harold were wonderful, until the very end. And even with Martin and Win, I was happy for most of the time."

"But they did end, all of them," I said. "They failed."

"Maybe some people would say so... But I think, personally, that it would have been worse to have been alone all that time. Sure, maybe I would have protected my heart from some things, but would that really have been better? To hold myself apart because I was too scared that something might not be forever?"

"Maybe," I said... "Because at least then you're safe. The fate of your heart is your choice, and no one else gets a vote."

She considered this, really thinking about it, then said, "Well, it's true that I have been hurt in my life. Quite a bit. But it's also true that I have loved, and been loved. And that carries a weight of its own. A greater weight, in my opinion. It's like that pie chart we talked about earlier. In the end, I'll look back on my life and see that the greatest piece of it was love. The problems, the divorces, the sadness... those will be there too, but just smaller slivers, tiny pieces."

"I just think that you have to protect yourself," I said. "You can't just give yourself away."

"No," she said solemnly. "You can't. But holding people away from you, and denying yourself love, that doesn't make you strong. If anything, it makes you weaker. Because you're doing it out of fear."

"Fear of what?" I said.

"Of taking that chance," she said simply. "Of letting go and giving into it, and that's what makes us what we are. Risks. That's living, Remy. Being too scared to even try it -- that's just a waste.I can say I made a lot of mistakes, but I don't regret things. Because at least I didn't spend a life standing outside, wondering what living would be like."

End of the pierced belly???

sob sob... I had to remove my navel stud last nite coz it's still not well yet and it started to itch last nite so I made the crucial decision to remove it temporarily. And I discovered this morning that........... I can't put it back!!!!!!!!! *WAIL!!!!!!* I dunno if the hole's closed up or just stuck with gunk but I couldn't get the stud back in :o( This is so sad... I'm gonna try it again this evening and *cross my fingers and toes* that I can get it in. If not, I'll have to go back to Borneo Ink when it's healed and get them to do sumthin abt it. Blurgh, this sucks... :o( Am looking at it right now, and the top hole looks fused up *WAIL!!!!!* :o(

Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!!

Hope everyone had a great CNY! I sure did... especially having the long hols ;o) Ate and ate and ate some more, collected ang pows, slept a lot, ate some more... haha... heaven! :o)

Oooooooo... and I finally managed to catch a lion dance in action!!!!! Yaaaay!! I've been missing it every yr since I got back from the States (how pathetic is that!) and I finally caught it at 1U this year!! Was sooooo happy! :D I lurve lion dances! They're sooooooo cool!

Anyway, it's back to work today but as more than half the office is still on their hols, it's really quiet, 'cept for us few mortals who've nothing better to do... can hear us tap-tap-tapping away on our keyboards... YM-ing and MSN-ing... hehe... sssssshhhhh!! Me and colleague are quite sad ppl... we went to amuse ourselves with the new copier, hehe. No no... amuse is not the correct word. We went to get acquainted with the new copier... hahaha! Gawd, we need to get lives... *shaking head*