ARGH!!! Bloody drivers!!!

I tell u... some M'sians shouldn't be allowed to drive AT ALL!!!! GAH!!

I dunno if it's just my bad luck or what... but my car kena hit again!!!

There I was, minding my own business, driving home from class on the Sprint highway. I was in the fast lane and was just passing this other Wira on my left when the STUPID MORON decided to change lanes into my lane without even bloody looking first!!! So, hit my car lar! Thank gawd he didn't suddenly swerve 100% into my lane or else I think I wouldn't be here writing this right now. Some more after that, when I moved into the slow lane, trying to decide if I should stop and check my car, the bloody idiot moved to the slow lane also (behind me) and started tail-gating me!!! I was like WTF!! So I slowed down even more. We were passing by a Shell station and I just slowed down to see if he'd pass me and turn into the station. He did and stuck out his hand as an apology. I just GLARED at the stupid bugger coz he's one of those ah bengs who do their car up all ugly with stickers and loud exhaust and think they're the next Michael Schumacher on the road. GAH!!

THAT was a scary incident, man. If he'd swerved into my lane 100%, I think I would've hit the divider and goodness knows wat might've happened then :-O

Everyone, pls be very careful when u're driving on the streets coz u not only have to look out for criminals but u've also got to look out for stupid, careless, irresponsible drivers who are selfish asses and think of nothing but themselves on the road.

Babies and Weddings

Mich gave birth to a baby girl yesterday afternoon!!! Wow, the first of my friends to have a baby!!! Her name's Kimberly Anne Anantha...

Congrats to the happy family!!! :-D

This Saturday is Chien Li's wedding. I've been given the honour to be one of her ji muis, hehe, so I have to be at her house by 8am!!! :-O So early!!! Which reminds me, the woman hasn't sent out the roles/responsibilities of her ji muis AND a map to her house!!! ACK!!!

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Hmph... recruiters who call me up and are more interested in getting MY contacts to fill a position rather than helping me get employed annoy me tremendously!!

So what next???

The perpetual dilemma...

"WHAT AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?????"

I just want a job that will give me a sense of fulfilment and achievement at the end of the day. A job that's meaningful and preferably will contribute towards the betterment of society or the animal kingdom. Doing work just for the sake of contributing to the employer's revenue just isn't sufficient anymore.

What difference am I making in the world?
What good am I doing?
How am I contributing to my kids' future (if I have any)?
How am I making myself a better person by doing what I'm doing everyday?

Not expecting to come up with some miracle cure for AIDS or anything huge like that lar. Just want to do something good, regardless of how small it is.

I am definitely not destined to obtain tremendous wealth, with this type of mindset. Not that I'm looking for it. Though it would be nice to afford one or two luxuries once in a while.

Beggars can't be choosers. I think I'd take a paycut doing what I enjoy and being able to contribute some good over a high-paying high-stress corporate job.

My MBTI

According to the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI), I am the following:

• Introverts are career specialists who tend to use their skills in a narrower range but in greater depth.
• Sensing types like their career to be continuous. They see their career as a ladder and look for the nest step based on the experience they already have.
• Feeling types adopt personal growth as their goal. Whether they leave or stay in a job depends upon whether they feel like doing so.
• Judging types make plans for their careers. They hesitate to make moves that are not in their original plan without first establishing a new plan.

Which describes me as follows:

• Detailed
• Conscientious
• Traditional
• Loyal
• Patient
• Practical
• Organized
• Service-minded
• Devoted
• Protective
• Meticulous
• Responsible

Which basically pretty much sums up what my ex-boss had to say about me as an employee (except for the one in red!)

Squeaky clean

Spent most of the weekend doing housechores... laundry, ironing, sweeping, mopping, clearing out my room. Finally got rid of that big Dell box that was sitting in the middle of my room from the time when I cleared my stuff from MNC.

Man, ironing is such tiring and hot work!!! Was wondering just now, how come I have a stiff, achy back today and I just realized it must've been from all that ironing! o_O

Still job hunting... anyone got any leads????? Systems implementation... pre-sales consultant... project lead...

Or just gimme the $$$$$ to run an animal sanctuary!!!

Ahahhahahaha!!! Wishful thinking eh...

:-p

Tired, spent, burnt out...

Yesterday was not a good day.

Event #1 : not good outcome
Event #2 : left me with a very guilty feeling
Event #3 : getting stuck in traffic plus getting lost and paying toll just to get myself out of goodness-knows-where was not very fun
Event #4 : was probably the best among all events -- free hotel food complete with performances. Unfortunately, I was totally out of place due to wrong dress code... but this couldn't be helped.
Event #5 : all the above resulted in me being totally zonked out by the time #4 was over (I left early, didn't stay till the end). But still went out to salsa... though the mind wasn't with the body. Dozed off when I was sitting outside, taking a break coz it was like a sauna in the club. Woke up with a start and realized that was not a wise thing to do... especially in a public area with strangers walking all around.

The night ended on a bad note... sigh...

Am still a bit out of it now...

The next few weeks will be some of the most difficult weeks in my life, I'm anticipating... a time for self-reflection, realization, and discovery. And hopefully I'll make the correct decision.

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@#$%^&*

Was on the way to Palace of the Golden Horses yesterday night. The jam from KL -- Jln Tun Razak -- Sg. Besi highway was HORRENDOUS!!!

So there I was, stuck in the jam, near the Turf Club roundabout when this SILVER TOYOTA CAMRY on my right decided to change lanes.

See, I'm fine with ppl wanting to change lanes as long as they do so at the correct opportunity i.e. when there is sufficient space and the traffic is clear. BUT this ASSHOLE, I was just passing by him when he decided to switch lanes, just like that, without using his stupid BRAIN (if he has any) to look out for traffic on his left!!! Duh! It's a bloody traffic jam! How can u NOT see cars EVERYWHERE??!!!

So he hit my back bumper, and post-accident check, there are now three LONG scratches from the side all the way to the back.

And you know wat's even more aggravating???? THE BLOODY BUGGER DIDN'T EVEN STOP TO APOLOGIZE!!!!!!! He just sped off at the very next opportunity!!!!!! @#$%^&*!!!!!

So if you see a SILVER TOYOTA CAMRY with the license plate WKR 7150, u better watch out.

I hope the stoopid moron totals his stoopid car.

GAH!

*fuming*

Fear

... is such a crippling disease...

:o(

Sense or Nonsense???

I just found out today that...

1. If a motorist/motorcyclist (not sure if it applies to both) runs a red light and u're moving coz it's green on ur end and u hit the said motorist/motorcyclist, YOU are in the wrong coz if u argue and tell the cops that the traffic light was red on the other side, the cops would ask u (1) How do u know that the traffic light is red on that side of the road? And if u answer, "Coz I can see the traffic light from where I am", the cop would accuse u of not paying attention to ur own direction/road, which is why the accident happened in the first place, and (2) if u want to make any insurance claims, the cop would fine u 300 bucks before u can make a police report.
2. If u hit a motorist/motorcyclist who doesn't have a valid driver's license and if s/he sustains injuries, it is YOUR fault for hitting into him/her even if the non-licensed driver is in the wrong.

The above incidents were relayed to me by my friend.

Huh... someone tell me if it makes SENSE???

Communication

Hhhmmm... why can't ppl say what they mean, directly and straight-to-the-point?? At work, at home, with friends, with acquaintances... basically, in any situation lar.

Saves a lot of time, misunderstanding and confusion, no?

Anyone know how to make more $$$???

I found out today that the poverty line in Klang Valley is RM1,500.

WTF???!!! And to think that job postings these days still advertise salaries BELOW RM1,500!!!

ACK!

How to survive when the price of everything is skyrocketing while our salaries remain static????

Someone tell me how?????

Case in point #1: When I was in the States and working at my first job, I was paid about USD2,000 a month, before taxes. A bottle of St. Ives shower gel was about USD3.49. When I came back to M'sia and started working in KL, I was earning about RM2,000 a month (I wasn't in the taxable range then). The same bottle of St. Ives shower gel was RM15.90. If my maths is correct, the bottle of St. Ives shower gel costs about 350% more in KL as compared to the States. But the salary I earn is a dollar for dollar in RM.

The prices of books sold at our bookstores here are a direct conversion from the foreign currency in which they are imported.

Case in point #2: I bought this book "The Food Revolution: How Your Diet Can Help Save Your Life and Our World" for RM72.19 at Kinokuniya. The list price of this book in the States is USD17.95 (or cheaper at discount stores). Even though my salary now is somewhat significantly higher than what I started out with (i.e. RM2,000), I doubt if I can afford many more books when the prices are converted directly from the foreign country in which they are imported. And we're supposed to cultivate the reading culture in M'sia rite? Errr, how to get our hands on interesting and thought-stimulating books when we can't afford them?!

I think sooner or later, I'll just have to stay at home and amuse myself with the household utensils I have at home coz I dun think I'll be able to afford to pay for gas to drive out and pay toll, eat out, go to clubs, take my dance lessons... not with the price of everything else increasing like nobody's business while my salary remains static.

o_O

Oodles...

I felt like I was back in the States, living on my own and doing my grocery shopping. Stopped by BSC on my way home from class today to buy groceries for my dinner and breakfast as the parents are away. It hit me when I was walking aruond Cold Storage, with my shopping basket, that this was so reminiscent of my days in Buffalo, when I used to go grocery shopping alone at Wegman's and Tops.

*cue to some sappy sentimental tune*

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Wow, I just found out today that it's damn tiring to talk and do exercises simultaneously! I took part of today's warm-up during Odissi. Counting the steps was part of the exercise coz it allows the others to follow me in sync while I show the exercise. But maaaaannn! I was out of breath when I was part-way thru the exercise! Phew! It's damn tiring!!! I've gotta start training more, man.... o_O

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While stuck in a traffic jam on Thursday, was listening to mix.fm with Richard, Shaz, and Ika. The question they had that morning was "Is it possible to strike a balance between work and personal life?" So callers called in with their views and all... some said yes, others said no. And throughout my entire drive to work, I was thinking "How the hell are we supposed to strike a balance when our employers milk us for all our worth and their definition of a hardworking employee is someone who stays at work past official work hours to complete his/her insane workload?" One caller hit one of the nails in the head when he remarked that employers in KL don't care whether or not their employees have personal lives. Which, I happen to believe is true.

Oh shucks, it's gonna be Monday again... bleh...

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See lar... never learn that last minute things will never work as planned. They've got their teams all organized and planned out already but we had to force them to take on more roles than they can handle. And see what rojak came out of it.

Next time, plan it properly, since u all already know that that's how u wanna run the program.

Choices and Decisions

What should I do... what should I do...

Urgh...

o_O

Nincompoops

The Rudeness Survey that was done is quite accurate.

I think Malaysians ARE a rude bunch.

Take simple things like holding open doors and elevators. Since my days in the States, where I'd first encountered strangers who'd actually hold the doors open for me (waaaa!), I'm used to saying "Thank you" and vice versa, when I hold doors open for others, I'd get a smile and a "Thank you".

But back here in M'sia, HAH! U're lucky if ppl even acknowledge u when u hold the elevator doors open for them! Most of the time, these ppl act like u dun even exist. Like the elevator doors magically stay open for them while they walk in or out at their sweet time. Like some sort of invisible troll is holding the door open for them.

Geez... would it hurt u so much as to just smile at the person who's holding the door open for u so that s/he knows that u've appreciative of their efforts?? Not that it takes a lot of effort to hold a door open for someone but it does mean that u're taking the time to think abt the person who's behind u.

Cannot even say "Thank you" is it??? Got gold in the mouth is it???

Sheesshh... so rude!

Running around...

... like a mad person these past 3 days...

so so tired... drive from Subang to KL to Cyberjaya back to KL then Subang... o_O

I realized that... I prefer carrying out tasks on my own rather than let someone else do it coz I feel that I'd complete the task faster coz I've got total control.

Must.learn.to.let.others.do.things.

tired tired tired tired tired...

oh, and had to pay 20 bucks for my stupidity and carelessness... dumb dumb DUMB!! Aiyeeerrrr! Stupid-nye!!! *smacking self in head*

One Jolly Family...

His extended family is so cool!! All so jolly and fun and NICE to each other!! Wow!

It was two of his cousins' graduation dinner and I got invited... hehe :-D

Before the food arrived, the 2 graduates were made to give a speech each. Then the dads. Then one of the cousins' friend was dragged up. Hehe, free entertainment while waiting for the food. Then suddenly, I kena pulak! They wanted a salsa demo at first but then I said I couldn't dance without HIM. Then he got dragged up (hehe!) and then we went "Oh, but got no music" So then they said "Tell us something abt urself and something abt HIM that we dunno"... and I went "Erm, wat abt him dun u know?" Anyway, I got as far as my name when the food arrived. Yay! Saved by the food! Hehe...

I'd drunk more wine that night than I've ever drank at any other dinner function. And I didn't even get high! Weeee!! :-D Well, mainly coz I was cold (the a/c at these restaurants are always at subzero temperatures, or so it seems to me *rolling eyes*) and alcohol makes me warm. But I forgot that it makes me warm only at my FACE! Duh!

Anyway, we ended the nite at their Grandma's place... and it's so nice to see everyone so happy and cheery and caring towards each other.

Aahhh... good ol' family ties...

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Dear God, please please please help me ensure that my event this coming week will run without any major hiccups. Please dun let me forget anything that I need to get done. Please let all the equipment and ppl work well. Thank you.
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Dang, am *hic* hiccupping now. How to *hic* go sleep like that????????? o_O

Me != Bullshitter

Oh gawd... I feel so incredibly stupid... and truthful.

I really honestly seriously cannot bullshit my way out of ANYTHING!

I will tell the truth before I can stop for a moment and think of the implications.

One would think being honest is a good trait to have... but this is not the case in all circumstances.

Are there any courses on bullshitting that anyone can recommend me to?

blurgh *smacking self in head*

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Priorities change...so do dreams...

When I was younger, I'd dreamt of having a high-flying career that would enable me to fly all over the world to conduct business, have my entourage of assistants at my disposal, make critical decisions to close a deal. Heck, when a local TV station came to my school to interview selected students on what they would like to be in the future (can't remember what was the occasion... could be for Merdeka Day), I'd even said "I aim to be a CEO of an established multinational firm"... I'm laughing to myself, now that I'm thinking back to that moment.

Now that I'm older and a bit wiser, my dreams of being a high-powered executive has flown out the door completely. Why? My priorities have changed. Now, even though we're just some fresh entry-level grad or senior executive (not even managerial level yet), we're worked to the bone, a lot of times way past official working hours and even on off days. A lot of us dun have much of a personal life, let alone a social life. And from all the features written about female CEOs or those in similar positions, how many are either single or divorced?? From my observation, the workplace is brutal, especially if you're female and the higher up on the corporate ladder.

Now, I am content with a desk job that allows me a reasonable amount of challenges but one which also allows me have some time outside of work to call my own. Time which I can spend with my family and friends. Time to carry out activities that I enjoy. Time to run errands which I can't afford to spend the time to do during the weekdays.

I dun mind facing the PC the entire day. Really. I dun care about not being able to travel for work. I dun care about having tons of assistants at my disposal. I dun care about bringing home a high salary (something reasonable that allows me to enjoy a few creature comforts is sufficient).

But I do care about having sufficient rest everyday. I do care about having the time to spend with the people I care about. I do care about having the time to be able to do things that I enjoy doing.

I've said in a previous post. Life is short. Do the things that you really desire as soon as you can... before you regret it later and think about the "If only I had...". Work is not everything (except for those who choose to make their work their life).

Life is short. Live it.

Can't sleep...

Shites... it's 3.36am and I can't sleep coz there're so many things running thru my mind abt the event next week.

Most of all, the horrifying thought that everything's gonna be screwed up coz I missed out something.

Urgh... so much for not giving a damn...

:o(

My Dream

My dream is to run my own animal sanctuary, where I can provide temporary (or permanent, if need be) shelter to homeless animals. There will be adoption drives and education sessions to teach children the beauty of animals and the simplicity of their lives, and why we need to respect them as fellow creatures who share this planet with us.

A big feat? Uh huh... but am still working on doing something animal-related on a small scale first, then building into a larger scale project.

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Everytime I see or use this piece of equipment, it reminds me of the stress that comes along with it.

Wish I could just throw it far far away... into the lake at the golf course outside our balcony.

But I got no $$$ to compensate for it.

Duh...

Grateful...

I AM grateful.

Really.

But...

Some people... BAH!

Some ppl just get so touchy and sensitive when they're not informed about something, even though they're not directly involved/affected by that something.

Geez...

But when you ask them for help, they give you that "Why are u even wasting my time?" look.

ARGH! Cannot tahan DoAs like these!!!

So blurdy arrogant!

So touching!

I really appreciated this boy's comment in The Star regarding Steve "the Crocodile Hunter" Irwin's death...

Desmond, nine, from Seremban said:

''It’s sad to lose someone who cared so much for animals and treated them with a lot of love. I will miss him.”

If only all people can care for animals and respect people who care for animals like this little boy...

Dad & Cat

"Pet me, pleeeaaassseeee" ...Misty, manja-ing with Dad, hehe...

DoA

= Directory of Arseholes

Haha...trust Merv to come up with something like that... :p

Now I've got a new name to call THEM.

Oww...

Oww owww...

Tension headache on the left side of my head... :o( Feels like something/someone is stabbing this part of my head.

Woke up with it this morning. My reflex is making me tilt my head to the left in hopes of softening the pain, not that it's working. And it's making me look like I've got a crick in my neck.

Blurgh...

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